2 year A confirmed

[complicated]

Well h and I talked again. We decided to d. I know this is only a week later but I can't take this back and forth any longer and he is still seeing ow. He said he was the one who went back. That really hurt.

MC told me that she told him that he needed to break it off with her if we d so his mind was clear when he went through it. I go to her on Wednesday so I will probably talk to her about it.

Funny thing is I know h still loves me. There were tears on both our parts and hugs. He told me he knows he is a bad person and he needs to get that right. He talked about being on a roller coaster. He also said he had a bad week.

I was the one that cut off the conversation because I promised d19 we would have a girls day before she went back to school. He said I'll call you later. I'm not sure why he said that. But I told him I was going with D16 and D21.

Really weird today. I am very sad that we are calling it quits. I know that we both still love each other and I know that someday he will come around and be sorry and I guess maybe I will too but I have given it my all and since no one can predict how much longer he is going to go through this I need to take care of me and girls. I think limbo land is hard on them too. I told him I just wanted him to be happy.

He said he feels like no one cares about him. Last week when he wasn't feeling good the girls didn't go see him or I guess didn't even check up on him. I did though but I don't matter. lol

What was also weird was that when he left our house he was wanting to go talk to his mom again. He said that he was upset that she didn't talk to him about things. I said she was trying to stay out of it and she did tell you what she thought. He said when she did he felt like he was being ganged up on. I also told him that no one can tell him what to do that he has to make his own decisions. He said he has always respected his parents.

So I don't know if they ever really got to talk. He also told me that he had been looking for a house. That is how crazy he is right now. I just know I'm done at the amusement park. I know going through this d is going to be hard and there will be a lot more tears shed.....on both our parts.