The Show Must Go On

[BrightFuture]

Makingmajic, no, I don’t think at this time H will put any kind of fight, but it could change, you know. I was a main breadwinner for a long time and I want what I earned hard, probably at the expense of my marriage. I told this to H and he said “Hmm, I didn’t think about it like this”. So, I hope I will get what I want.

Linda, yes, I negotiate my own contracts, since my field is completely different from H’s. I’m getting some random offers, but all of them in other parts of the country. I don’t want to travel too far. I prefer to stay in California. So, I’m just waiting for the right opportunity.
I actually do have a concert tonight. My sister bailed out on me, she is too tired after a night shift. I tried to invite a couple of friends, but with no success. So, I’m going by myself!

Wonka, I do have some fun stuff I can send to H, but I’m still hesitant to do it though. I don’t know why. I have no idea what his state of mind is, except that he might be lonely, so he signed up on the dating site. When I crossed the border today and turned on my cell phone, I got a text message from him asking me about the business. I don’t know when the text was sent, but he said “good morning”. It could be today or yesterday, or even earlier in the week. I replied, told him that I just crossed the border and didn’t know when he sent the text, but gave him an updated for business. He replied right away with "ok, thanks".

Now, when I'm back home and back to the reality, I need to process my feelings and figure out what I want to do next. Still don’t know if I should initiate the communication with H at this time. Could get more input on this, please.