Just reading others' posts and realised that it was my (17th) wedding anniversary 2 days ago - and coincidentally (!!) the 2-year anniversary of bomb drop one day before that.
And I hadn't even realised....
Don't know if that's a sign of detachment or a sign that I'm still in the throes of fairly serious depression - where time seems to mean nothing and everything at once, and memory fails.
XH is making more attempts to re-connect with the kids.
He presents as entitled though (texting "Ring me to tell me when you are playing sport this weekend" and threatens to cut off their phone credit if they don't reply) and they don't want to let him back in.