Which is the truth?

[forlovessake]

Thanks so much for the advice! I have read busting, and will try to get the remedy.

I'm in such a bad place right now.I went to a wedding last night. It was awful. I mean, it was beautiful and special but for me it was the most painful night I've had in months. How could my husband do this? How can he walk around like the 8 years we spent together meant nothing? How can he barely see our DD? It's like our life was worthless and miserable to him. I can't stop crying and I don't even know how to walk through this anymore. I know God is with me, I do. I know he can redeem this even though every person has told me to give up. I just want to stop hurting. I just want my life, my husband, my best friend back. I ran out of the reception crying and I've been a disaster since. This journey feels never ending. This morning I picked up D from H. I looked at him for a long minute and told him I missed him. He said he kind of missed me too. I then said I loved him and said I didn't expect it in return. He said he'll always love me. And now he's at a wedding as OW's date. I feel so broken. So sad. Like there's no hope, though there always is with God. Just feels like too little too late. And like even if I change he still doesn't want the family life.