My Story - Need Help... Is there hope?

[truelovewaits]

So I wrote the apology. I didn't send it. I also included a bunch about the R which I know I can't send. A big part of me though feels that things need to be discussed but I know it is up to her as to when she is ready. But the apology might help.

Today I'm hurting over this. I don't know why as I had a great date last night. It seems that this always follows something amazing is that I reflect later and long for her. How do I change this? I know it should be about my life, and my GAL is great and is very exciting right now. But the best part of my life was always sharing with my wife, our connection as best friends was very strong and that is something that I truly miss.