Still at Square One!!!

[DFE]

H called this morning and asked if the kids and I wanted to go shopping. We did and had a really nice time. He took us to lunch afterwards then went home. It's like he can handle the family life for a few hours a day. Is that our reality?

I have been reading lots of books and learning so much. I practiced some of what I learned today. Such as eye contact and using my H's love language which is words of affirmation. He keeps talking about the future of our business even though I've said I can't work with him if we D. I am GAL and going out tonight and know I will have a great time. I am trying to have no expectations but its in the back of my mind. I don't think i could spend the day with him like this if I didn't have some expectations or wish that we would reconcile.

He is sending me mixed signals which I know is not healthy for me. I am detached and honestly I live him too but I don't know if I am in love with him either. I just recognize that we have work to do and feel we can reconnect again. He doesn't.