you say: "Recovering our past is hard - that is the one thing that the MLCer really robs us of. It becomes unsafe - you wonder at what point they bailed, at what point it is all false? But then it comes not to matter, )"
and i want to glom onto your idea and say yes - wonder if they ever realize what they've done to another perfectly good person & their life? wonder if they ever get out of their own self ENOUGH to even think of the repercussions of their actions.
i'm thinking maybe not anymore. maybe it's a "kind of person you are"kind of thing. maybe the people who blam thru life leaving a wake of people whove been used by them (me) or hurt by them or whatever . i didn't want to presume to include you- idk your h and what he feels or felt-
i do assume alot these mlc people- i do believe it's a type of insanity- but then i think workaholic and alot of thigns tht are perfectly acceptable in our society are insanity too.
i thik it's just another acceptable thing to do and to be. i'm just sayin.
i don't have alot of philosophy about it- i just say yeah- how do we go back and reemmber alllll the lovely bits of our lives with them and 38 yrs of past life - and not also think it may all have been a sham. (well- ws to them anyway)
0h well- i aspire to your pma and apparent handle on it all.
i'm waaaaay "better" than when i began- it's sad as heck tho- all of it. i hope your anniv. day didn't make you too blue- all the little landmarks are sad , but i guess we're stuck with it all huh?
you're sounding like you're really movin past it all - so yay you and thanks for sharin it all- and yeah, he's probably havin stuff sent to you to keep some kidn of string on you an your life. soooo- what? is there some part of them that is just another human being like us? idk man
