Why the hurry to stand or walk, when the time comes you wont even need to think about it, it wont be a decision it will be a response.
Right now, your standing, nothing wrong with that. Waffling is normal too, your boarding on the acceptance stage, and that can be a long drawn out stage, but don't feel like you HAVE to make a decision. It will happen when it happens.
For now, I think its important that you just stay positive for the sitch, cause your def. not ready to date it sounds like. Your attitude projects thru on all your interactions. Just keep DB'n, 180, 37 rules and most importantly PMA!! when not feeling the pma, you have to at least act "as if" even thou for now we both know its more of a façade. You'll get there, just don't be in a rush, your wife knows you better than you think she does.
