...but I surely view her differently and am disgusted by her and her actions. I would rather not speak to or see her at all at this point.
She senses this and that's why she's running from you. You need to show her that you are giving her a gift: the gift of freedom to do as she pleases. Strive not to be disgusted. Put your ego aside. Try to see things from her perspective. Find true empathy.
Remember what MrBond said about looking at this as a gift - that was good advice! You have to totally let go of her. Love her unconditionally. Think of how God loves us: Agape. Remember, You've had an AWAKENING.
This will be the greatest challenge of your entire life. Once she senses that you are not trying to control her or keep tabs on her or JUDGE her and that you're totally accepting of whatever she's feeling or trying to figure out right now... she MAY want to be friends and include you in her life again.
Change your thoughts of disgust to how YOU contributed to the downfall of the M and what you can work on. You can only change things about yourself. Your W is on her own journey. This is your time to take yours!
You can still GAL with your girls... Fish, take walks, check out new sights, take up a new sport together, research a new subject, draw pictures, paint, work on a new project... be the best Dad you can be. Be a H your W would be a fool to leave because it's the right thing to do regardless of where this all goes...
ETC
"Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can." UrWorthy
