Questions without answers...am I stuck in place?

[albamarie]

Well here I am 2.5hours later and h is back after having quite his night job.

I'm a little sick to my stomach and to confused to say anything.

He said, I'm home! I said but you haven't been home in a long time, he said I am home, I said no until I realized what he may be saying. He said I'm home, I'm leaving my job, my anger, EA, hopefully smoking, and coming home, it feels like a giant weight off, I may even be able to love you again!

We are losing our health, dentis, vision, and life insurance, as he leaves 2 yrs prior to retirement.

He said it will be ok, we will be provided a way. He does have a career having nothing to do w the night work that he can go full time in, night was our benifts job.

He disclosed that he was rerouting 2 checks to start his own bank account that he will no longer need and will return to the family account.

He quickly mentioned the last two yrs ( of he!!) as if its over, saying he gained nothing from it, God didn't come to him. I said well your parents/ brothers came and I, well I....I stopped right there, and just said His guidance comes...you just have to learn to recognize it.

So I'm taking my advise and trying to recognize what this may be meaning for us, but honestly I hold zero hope, or at least I have zero confidence. When in doubt say nothing. Put it in Gods hand, Snodderly, that's the only thing I have left, and how I react, I have that.