So... thought I might get some sleep. Was winding down at 12:45 AM... and got paged for work. Still on the call, but sneaking a moment here because I'm just listening to the chatter.
And at 9 PM tonight, I have a software deployment to do. It could be 2 hrs and go smooth... or it could be a 6 hr nightmare. In between, of course, I'm expected to continue the usual workload. Working for a large corporation pretty much means I'm just a cog in the machinery. They only care about my health/mental health in how it affects my performance.
On top of all this, I am expecting a process server any day now (maybe today, even). :-(
Really starting to hate FB. My W has started messaging me there now, so I get on to check (not that I'm not on there too much already), but I CAN NOT stop myself from checking her profile. She's been very quiet, but today she had a post from a friend at work about a Zumba class, and it just made me sadder about her having this new life while I live like a prisoner here in the sticks. W is not very social, and this is very unlike her - of course I know she's going to be doing stuff, and I need to detach, but... at least this failure I can share here and try to do better.
