I got my hair cut and lightened today. My MIL noticed, I wonder if he will. I like it so even if he doesn't it is a good pick-me-up during this pregnancy.

He called today and every time he does I get so excited and pick up forgetting that things are not normal with us. I have to learn how to not be so available and not pick up every single time he calls. The call was short but kinda sad bc we both know that these are not what our normal conversations are like.

God, won't you please send my lover and friend back to me? Please ... frown I am breaking down crying now and I haven't in weeks.

Me 35 H 34
DS- newborn 8/13
T 8.5 M 7
H's EA - 10/11
INILWY 5/13
DBing 6/13
Don't know WTF to do 1/14