My H (LD or ND) and I (HD) have been in counseling since Oct. 03. He has also been diagnosed as having a great deal of hostility and also as being passive/agressive. I don't feel that we've made any progress. I just am paying for the same bs that I was getting before...he'll try to pay more attention to me...he'll try to get a consistent job...blah blah blah. None of it has happened, unfortunately.
I'm now feeling a great deal of hostility (I measured very low on this on the profile we took)and, beyond that, don't have a clue how I feel about him right now. I'm not sure I still love him. When he says that he loves me I immediately think "yeah, right." I am not feeling the love that he proclaims. I hate the person that I'm becoming and can see the change in myself both physically and emotionally. I know that I'd be better off just walking away at this point, but I'm not a quitter.
I have started a new fitness program that should have me at 2-3 miles within 2 months. I'm trying to focus on doing positive things for ME at this point. I seem to have little control over my relationship with my H, and he doesn't seem motivated to change that.
