Lost, confused and trying to make a stand

[brobafet]

Kat,

I hope all is worked out with the kiddos. Doing okay. We had our initial status conference where she forgot all of her paper work.....this is what I'm going to have to deal with for rest of my life right? Anyways, i'm tired really really tired I haven't been sleeping and tonight is the night I change that. I just can't seem to find sleep when I should be. I think to much when I'm lying down.

stbx is tolerable. I don't have any desire to talk to her even about the things that need to be discussed. No anger with me just sadness. This [censored] guys it really really [censored]. I hate hearing her say "I gave you 11 years." What did I give you then a day? Oh yeah I'm not the one that cheated....multiple times. I'm not the one that doesn't show remorse....ugh Not going down this path. I'm better than I was a month ago. Started doing daily bible studies. And I'm praying a lot.