Drifting can be nice sometimes. Like being that nice kind of drunk where you feel floaty and without care. We fight so hard in these situations: fight for us, fight for them, fight down the fear, fight the tears, fight the feeling of being lost and we use all the tools at our disposal, even our sense of humour.
I know what you mean when you say that the hurt seems to have disappeared. For me, it does return but not nearly as badly. I liken it to resignation and taking a deep breath before a plunge into cold water. The realization that you are (even though you hoped you might not have to) going to have to save yourself.
Wish I had some advice for you. The positive is that you have time to decide if you want to go, stay or wait things out or something in between for now. Separate bedrooms? For me, having him even think he could still have the privilege of spooning with me after telling me he cheated on me a dozen times would have been a NO. But those are lines that you need to figure out for yourself.
Miz, I do not think your H is crazy; he is self-centred and feels he is entitled. The conversation you related screams both of those things to me. Equally clear to me is that he has no intention of changing. Unless I have missed something, he does not appear remorseful or even aware that he is hurting you so badly. And I am so, so sorry for that.
Let your relationship drift for a little while. Enjoy the admiration and compliments that I am positive are coming your way in your review. Maybe you'll get a raise?
Totally agree that R talks bite the big one. A R talk was the last I ever had with xSO. Apparently was too much for him to take.
