About the being hot when and if you break up. It's putting a lot of pressure on you and the baby. Looking hot or not looking hot isn't he reason men leave or stay. They may say all those things but it's not the core and I would guess you probably know that to be true. The core of this has nothing to do with you and that's what makes this so flippin' difficult.

However, I completely understand that feeling of wanting to look fantastic. You might, you may have the genetics.

About the juice, did you really expect him to get juice for you? Those pesky expectations. He's marching to a different drummer and probably thinks he's doing you a great favor by continuing to live with you. Getting juice would have indicated that he had some feeling for you and he's trying to show the opposite of that. It succks. It's painful but you can't change him and it seems he sees no need to change. You are the source of all his unhappiness (in his head). We all know that's not true but that's what you're dealing with.

You can only take care of yourself, which for me would mean spending as little time with him as possible. That may not work for you.

Do you have friends? Can you get out of the house after work? Or go have a massage? Pedicure? Yoga? Divorce support group?

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss