My Story - Need Help... Is there hope?

[truelovewaits]

Thank you so much LeftCoast LBH. I feel your struggle and hope and pray that your wife returns to you. I'll continue with no contact but I feel that unless I try to help move things in the right direction that she will continue to have hurt and fear towards our relationship. I don't want to annoy her though or come across as weak. I'm stuck though.

As for GAL. I'm currently having the time of my life. I work out 3-5 times a week and have not looked or felt this good since I was in college. I date women, but that actually has only caused me to miss her more as I miss the connection we had and the little gross intimacy we shared as we knew everything about each other and held no secrets for a very long time. I go out to events often and have experienced many new amazing things. I am actively involved in social groups now, some that I couldn't even imagine. I am actively engaged in nature, hiking, painting, photography and the arts. I also now ice skate and play hockey again. I go out to bars with new friends and old ones. I have new nephews and nieces in my life and I attend many dinner parties. I read a great deal and debate the learning experiences of the R with friends, family and many others. Above that my job is great and I'm actually considering leaving it to form a start up as I am excited by many opportunities within the ecosystem. In short life is amazing, but also amazingly complicated. I enjoy the ebb and flow of life, but feel that I wish I could share this with my wife and that the past several years we did things wrong and that we handled what happened very poorly.