Thanks, Thumpered. That really helped right now. I'm trying to live "in the moment." I did get signed up for the 8 week stress management / pain reduction class my counselor referced me to, and part of it is covered by insurance. It's doesn't start until September, but I guess that gives me something to look forward to.
When I sent my W the info on the mortgage, I sent a summary of all of our debts. Because I always paid the bills, I thinks she's in for a shock - I thinks she's forgotten about half of what we're still paying for. Not even sure she knew the car wasn't paid off yet.