I know how tough it is BKS, take the baby steps, and stop thinking about the future. Your getting ahead of yourself. With the acceptance, comes the grieving, allow yourself to work thru it at your own pace, its not a race after all.
I hope your taking care of yourself, mentally and physically. Its still a long path to walk. The best way to get down it, is one foot in front of the other, no looking back. Don't be afraid to stop and smell the roses here and there.
