Both of you are correct.

My letter will be an apology only.

As for my current relationship I am ina quandry. I am a much better partner with my current boyfriend. I am someone my husband deserved to have. I feel i wanted him to know how changed i am , i want my family back together ( for my kids sake ). I never did not love my xh I just grew bored and i blamed him for that. I know that was incorrect and after much soul searching and book reading I changed, I matured.

what to do now , I dont know. I am stuck, cant move forward and I cant go back.

Here I sit.