Yes, S1 is soooo happy to be deployed again, it's his passion and I think addiction, lol. This one is several complexes so maybe it'll be a longer term deployment.
And yes, I feel so much better... altitude, clean air and the forest and mountains renew me. Need to get some backpacking in soon, just most of my favorite known spots are burning or at high risk to burn....sigh. Studying the topos for somewhere new and such.
It is tough to not take things personally, especially when they are directed at you, but once you get in the habit it builds. But I still slip there sometimes and have to catch myself and ask my self my own questions...
I think 99% may be a bit high, maybe more useful to figure out what "room" or "compartment" our minds are in first, then go from there as to whether it has much to do with you...?
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So W is going for getting employed at the thrift store she is volunteering at. She knows and likes the people, likes that what she does helps kids, and it is close and bike-able, though it won't pay as much as if she were to temp at offices. And she can get 30 hours or less. I have been completely supportive and encouraging, and truly appreciate her reasoning...makes sense, and she feels good about it, whereas temping maybe not so much. W feeling good and her self-esteem rising are very important to me.
And her choices (actions) here may indicate which way she is thinking regarding R/M. The extra income will really help the family, but wouldn't make much of a solo life, at all. But I could be wrong. Though I keep seeing more and more of "real" W, so...just gonna roll with it and see what comes out of the cocoon.
My gut/intuition feels okay...calm and quiet. So I will match up the rest of me to my gut, calm and quiet. Just be myself.
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
