Don't come around here no more

[wishing, hoping]

Thanks, GM. I do take anxiety/AD meds. They do help, but things are really heating up and I don't know if I am prepared to take it on.

And that's the other thing. H is taking control of the money and I have none. I have to jump through hoops to get the little bit that I have. I can't prove it yet, but I suspect H is withdrawing it so that I can't get it. He can't directly deposit into his account, but there are ways around that.

Thing is, I do want to leave, but H wants me to leave under HIS terms, not mine. And I am worried the courts will force me out with no financial arrangement. Right now we don't even have a parenting plan signed. This is another one of H's tactics to get me out while we don't have a parenting plan so let's just keep the 50/50 going and then why change it? He knows I am against 50/50 so he is trying to force it through.

H would love it if I cracked. I can't give him that satisfaction, but I need reassurance. And that seems so far away right now.

WH