Don't come around here no more

[wishing, hoping]

That's all I would need is to take time off work for emotional issues and H will be sure to use that against me too. He will never ever let me take the kids away. And I will not leave without them. He has me trapped. If I take time for myself I will be more despondent because I will miss the kids. And H will use that against me as abandonment.

Yes, H is mentally and verbally abusive to me. He is borderline that way with the kids, too.

I don't know what to do. If I say I need to leave to save my emotional well-being, H will get meaner to push me out faster. He is a monster. His family has told me that he is meaner than a snake when he doesn't get his way.

I can't let this guy take away my power. I just don't know the best strategy to proceed. And this costs so much money. My mom tells me I have too much invested to quit now.

Trying to dig deep. But H will be home tonight and has the next two days with the kids so he will be an absolute bear to be around. I am dreading that.

WH