lol I think it's a case of do as I say, not as I do I was only half expecting H to phone today, it doesn't matter to me whether he did or not. He did though, crikey I can read him like a book! lol. Actually I expected him to ring this evening as he sometimes sees my son on Weds. We were waiting this morning at the bus stop when H rang. He asked if we were at home and I said we were just catching the bus to the next town. He said to wait there and he'd pick us up. He ran us to the next town and because we were a bit early we went for a coffee. We all then walked to my son's friend's house and then me and H walked back to the car. He ran me to where I needed to be, then left me and said he'd pick us up later. It's left me feeling a bit emotional. I forgot to have my anti depressant this morning which may have something to do with it. He acted today as if we were just one big happy family, when really it's his apt that he's going back to and where he now calls home. All the time I acted "as if" and didn't let on how I really felt. Even when he got a bit upset about something, I still didn't react just made sympathetic noises. I didn't know how to react, I'm sure he didn't want me to put my arm round him for comfort. I mentioned about going to the cinema on Thurs, but he said he didn't know what he was doing so I'm going to go ahead and sort out the times for me and my son anyway. We're still going and whether he comes or not is up to him! I've got another busy week this week that doesn't involve H, so I'll be moving on and not worrying about what he's thinking or doing. I was hoping to have a quieter week this week, but that's not happening, lol. My son is staying round at H's on Saturday, so I'm going to arrange a BBQ, that's if the weather is still holding out! Like you 2old, I could wonder why he's showing me pictures of his flat, but unlike you it's not going to play on my mind, lol. I don't know where he lives and I'm not bothered as it's his other life and not here with his family! It may take him a while to realise this or it may not. One thing that today has taught me is I've got to do a 180 on my home and get it tidy, decluttered and clean, instead of being on here all the time, lol. H has started to notice that I've been working on the house which is a good thing If at the end of the day he decides not to come back, I can say that I've worked on me and will be a changed person if I find someone else. At least by improving myself, I won't be making the same mistakes twice!
H47 me48 T22 M21 S20 - Got high functioning autism 3/2000 H admits to OW and moves out to live with her 11/2000 H moves back home 2/4/13 H moves out H tells me he wants D 6/13, but now he can't afford to!
I was only half expecting H to phone today, it doesn't matter to me whether he did or not. He did though, crikey I can read him like a book! lol. Actually I expected him to ring this evening as he sometimes sees my son on Weds.
