boy - do i get the "leaving" bit. my h "leaves" alot - like on and off every several weeks for past two years (well - that's how long i've known for sure he's got ow)
i used to notlike it much - but believed him and in him before that. it's ebeen a bazillion years now-
i hate it every time- i wonder when the heck he'll just PICK HER and leave me for dead here - BUT AT LEAST IT WILL BE OVER.
I DECIDED NOT TO MAKE IT EASY FOR HIM- IDK WHY- he's a rat and if he's choosing to do THIS to me- i'm choosing to do THAT to him. if it's torture- well, man up and stop it one way or the other guy.
idk- linda - my h used to make wiseguy comments i never took personally too- now all of a sudden - it 's all true, isn't it? it's not joking any more.
i don't know if he gets that or not. i don't think my h has much or any self- awareness -
gotta go- car in drive i think hang on girls.
we all DREAD the leaving- of each sort. what a hell of a way to go thru life huh???? this dreading the other shoe droping ALLLLL THE TIME> WE WERE watching tv last nite a blurb sayign housewifes experience major stress-
he asked me if i'm stressed - i was sooo surprised i couldn't even answer. said something dumb like i don't work fulltime-
i'm sooooo STRESSED on a daily basis i'm lucky to still have hair i think- betwen him and my mother my stress levels are probably thru the roof - yet he asks like regular old conversation?????
since i know he is not interested in what i think or feel- i was happy i didn't even bother saying it.
i'm assuming all the old rules db apply- he's not interested- so don't tell him.
i'm outta here for moment. IT SURE IS ALL ABOUT THEM- WE DON'T EXIST AND IT'S NOTHING TO DO WITH US OTHER THAN OTHER GUY THERE AND HANDY TO BLAM BLAME BLAME
AS I SEE IT- mwd sure is rite about alot of stuff. NOW- WILL SHE BE RIGHT IN ANY OF OUR CASES that given enough time and space they will reemerge - AS THE GIANT BEAUTIFUL LOVING BUTTERFLIES THEY ONCE WERE.
GAG gag ick ick ick- just me being ratty. ya have to wonder - donja?
linda - glad your heart is hardening up one tiny bit- it's hard not "feeling" it all. dawn- glad to hear your voice today too.
