NERO FLOATING- throw that line.....

[Takevowsserious]

Umm yeah. What she said ^^^^^!!!!!

Nero, you are a doll. You seem to live a life taking care of everyone but yourself. You have a good heart.

Now I don't have any other words of wisdom to add, but I do have a recipe!

Just found this in a cookbook I got from the library - haven't made it yet, but wanted to share...

Soft peanut butter cookies
- 1 cup sugar
- 1 cup creamy peanut butter
- 1 egg lightly beaten
- 1 t. Vanilla extract

Mix all ingredients. Roll rough into one inch balls and place on ungreased baking sheet. Use fork to press crisscross pattern on top of cookie. Bake at 325 degrees for 10 minutes or until golden. Let cool before removing from sheet. Makes two dozen.

So I can't stop your H from being an a$$, but I can share recipes

[nero]

hey hi-

i was going to write to you and say the same kind of thing. i'm biting my tongue- sometimes my own little sarcasm sneaks out. i need to squelch that- if i'm going to "do this" and keep mum til i have my own junk sorted out- my own kind-of future- i need to stfu til the bitter end. i know it. in my own best interests here for him to think i'm a dedicated doofis - i think.

i am more det5ached to him tho- i can walk away when he ever gets close to being icky- i believe he senses it- tries to act nicer when he gets wind of me just walking out on him and his "even beginning tantrum" - i am soooo OVER his bad attitude and impatient crappy self.

my tolerance is soooo low now that i know what it alllll is- where did that understanding woman go? sitting in car yesterday thinking about just that- howwwww hard i tried and how nice i was allllllll the time and how UNDERSTANDING ---- love - ya gotta admire what it inspires in us. when it's there - (oh man- did i say that? sad huh?)

THEN - FINDING OUT what the heck REALLY was going on- well,

now, i think of you alot with it all in your face all the time and your h's rants, etc.- and i think how very little tolerance i have. he even looks at me funny and my brain is thinking "stuff it buddy" inside my head.

it's sad- i guess it's mandatory if we are to survive and not become sniviling worms.

anyway- managing to keep my lid on- idk what it is bothering him - his ow or his aunt who is jerking him around like mad. what the heck is it with old old old people who are neeeedy being $hitty to the only one coming around??? i can't get over it.

nevermind- not going there. he gets a little taste of my life maybe-

anyway- you're rite. i keep thinking same- how he "was" and is not any more. such things as stinking courtesy and manners and treating me like any other person in the world. like my mother here- what IS THIS ANYWAY???? her too- i'd settle for being treated as nicely as the check out girl in the food store.

not to be i guess- i am $hit to these guys- for whatever reason- don't even care anymore- just well and truly tired of it.

and you're rite again- there's got to be a better way to live tahn this. i want a companion who actually talks to me and values me and would like to hear what i say.

very very tired of feeling like a buzzing mosquito to these people who are SOOOOO IMPORTANT THAT i am a nuisance!!! f that .

insanity-

however, mood okay- sleep okay- so here i am still and carrying on. i actually have stuff i should be doing while down here- mammogram, etc, i'm a terrible procrastinator.

oh well- hope your day is good one- g onna be okay here i guess.

xxo

[nero]

hey - i'll take it.

i'm going to go try it- i notice i "stress bake" - oh well.

aside from developing a largte A$$ - better than alternatives.

well, it never does go to my A$$ - i could use a butt implant if i want to hav giant bobbliers like ole - jenniferlopez.

now that we're all supposed to actually want a big old butt that we can set our drink on- you know, like a tail gate party or something.

oh well- it's the problem- you're slim and everybody gotta have a comment about that- your tubby and everybody gotta have a comment about that-

this is a big eye opener. i've spent my life feeling tubbier than i should be (and i have never even been overweight- just public opinion around here- magazines, etc.- always one bit more than i should weigh to look GREAT

SO - NOW THANKS TO MISERY DIET - LOOKIN good, slim as i was in highschool at my "best" - *(tho way less firm & delectable) (oh well huh - whattya want for 62) and now a few friends tell me i look "too thin & unhealthy" WHAT A JOKE!!!

BETTER for joints, heart, health across the board, and so, we all thought everything would be great if only we could lose those stupid 15 lbs!!! isn't life wacko??? having a beautiful, petite, quiet & sweet sidekick in life showed me early on- beauty isn't everythign. she was never ahppy- it was a burden to her(?) - WHAT DO PEOPLE WANT???

i'm glad i can laugh- that's all folks- i
m takin my not fluffy enough butt and getting going here.

gonna make those cookies - eat too many- and i donknowwhat else

xxo

[RosaLinda]

T those cookies sound great, no flour at all? I'm going to send your recipe to my SIL with celiac disease!

Nero you said "i am more det5ached to him tho- i can walk away when he ever gets close to being icky- i believe he senses it- tries to act nicer when he gets wind of me just walking out on him and his "even beginning tantrum" - i am soooo OVER his bad attitude and impatient crappy self." Nero, Snodderly explained this to me. As she explained it, it is a sort of a dance, an evil MLC dance designed to give us hope and dash them against the stones. I guess the trick is to not have any expectations that the niceness will continue.

I just copied this off my old thread, from Snodderly "There are times when the mlcer will be nice and the lbs will begin to draw closer to the mlcer once again. In other words, think that the mlcer is coming out of the crisis or wants to be best buds. The lbs tends to want to be the all for the mlcer and begins to draw closer and think "ok, he/she is being so nice, I'll do whatever they want and be best buds". Not the case, generally when they are nice, they are reeling you in for some thing they want or something they've done and you'll find out later. If they can't get you to drop your detachment and react, they will then try to do it w/angry and spewing, hence the lbs is there trying to soothe them and get back on their best side. It's a dance of emotions and one that you need to detach from. You need to remain the way you have been the last week or so, i.e., aloof, you don't react to anything he says or does. If you do, he'll know he's got you on the fishing hook once again. This is all described in the Solo Partner and yes, I even have a thread on Cadet's welcoming page discussing it. I suggest you read it when you get a chance."

Isn't that interesting? I think that is what your H is doing Nero, you are fed up with him and he can feel it and is trying to get closer to you.

Hahaha, I am slim too from the misery diet, but my legs and arms are in flab city! But I bet we are both "delectable" especially for our age right! Poohey on your friends who say you look to thin! A woman can never be too thin or too rich right? I know I look a darned lot better than the RT, that's for sure! You know what's funny -- how when they are delivering BD, the MLCers also deliver a laundry list of what is wrong with you? My H told me I was too fat and too short. Well I lost 20 pounds, but didn't gain any inches

Are you up to some company on Saturday Sept 14th? uR and I want to take a field trip, and I want to eat some of those cookies!

[RosaLinda]

oh I remembered, it is officially called "Pursuer and Distancer behavior"

[albamarie]

Hey Nero,

I think you are more detached than you give yourself credit. This guys is an ass and you know it so well, you dont want any part of him back, you want what was and you know it's over. It's a bitche being smart, and your smart.

Take your skinny butt and walk about as if your the most gorgeous girl he will never have! I'm not skinny but I use what I got and he notices when I'm putting it out there, ha not for you buddy.

Baby due 24th, he's breach right now so were trying tricks to turn him. She big as a house, poor girl, between her Hungarian heritage and my H's Hispanic heritage they make big babies, I think my son is intimidated by it all. Where gonna go to Ikea and do a nursery euro style because everything is smaller.

Enjoy your cookies and cake and whatever else, people can stuff it, maybe there ugly, there's no cure for ugly, just look at our H's...ugggy!

Nero, don't be down on yourself! I am craving a companion, a friend that's a boy, someone to talk to, maybe even hold hands. I don't want to continue with this business of one mans junk, there is a world of people out there!

I respect M, but if he won't than am I really M? Does a paper need to be signed before I really don't have a M, or is it when at least one person breaks the vow and continues to fortify just how broken it is?

I wouldn't sleep around but heck why can't I at least be personable and smile for a change, that would resinate thro out every other part of my life making me very attractive right back to h again.

I have no answers, I just know I'm bored and lonely and want friends, male and female, and I wanna laugh, eat, walk, talk, and be alive again!

Your so full of life....your h can stick it! Hey, Nero if you would like to get a free email from gmail or yahoo, use Nero and then get a FB using Nero or some variation with your last name DB and then you can talk off forum to many people here. You should see Linda she's so sweet looking!

Gloomy day here but I love gloomy days, I'm weird, so I'm off to do something, have fun!

[RosaLinda]

Nero I miss you and hope you are having fun at the sunny FL beach eating cookies and ice cream with a bunch of funny kids! How is your H's poor aunt? He has not made that announcement about going on a field trip to see OW you were expecting rihgt? Maybe things are looking up for you two! I think so!

Hang in there! You think you are done but you are not

[RosaLinda]

And hey will you be back in NJ on Sept 14th? uR and I are coming to visit you and expect to be fed!

[nero]

Hey - i like gloomy days myself. theyu're "cozy" or soemthing.

good luck with turning that bby around- eek.

I wonder - you know- about you and your little crack in your door-

this whole insane business is enough to drive a person round the bend most days - isn't it?

it's such a shame - my h's lack of respect for the whole notion of commitment, etc. he's such a jerk in some ways.

i think to myuself i enjoy someone with a good brain- and here's this really bright guy- and emotionally he's such a kid and a ratty one at that. what he's missing- wonder if he'll ever realize.

he's a version of his stupid parents he hates- wonder if he ever had even one moment of self-recognition. i don't think so.

oh well- i'm thinking and feeling it's not a job i can do- provide him with insight. he doesn't want to hear anything from me- much less anything like that. he's bumbling along on his own- i do not have one shred of faith he'll come up with the right conclusions - or any conclusions at all.

that's a sad thing to think huh? no faith at all in him - his brain. i have another e-mail account- how do i use that to talk to you gys??? i don't know what you' were saying about using my last name and db - like nerodb? or what?

i kind of hate facebook and it's toooo much personal stuff out there for anyone at all .

no kidding-

i do have another e-mail account tho-

WE ARE SOOOOOOO "BROKEN" - i can't imagine how it ever could come back together again. and i'm the glue queen in life. everyone brings me everything to "fix" - this r of mine- i can't do it alone - hell , i don't think i can do it at all.

i wonder how i'll feel when i say i'd rather plan to stay down here anotehr week or two and he turns white and tehn tells me he just HAS TO go visit ow -

i am hoping for SOOOOO MUCH DETACHMENT YOU WOULDN'T BELIEVE IT'S ME.

what does a detached person say? anything at all?

nothing at all? i guess nothing.

"suit youself? " die ba$tard? ; drive carefully, wouldn't want tyoui to die in a FIRERY CRASH!!!

"want me to pack you a sandwich for the ride??? (arsnic sandwich sounds good).???

one wonders.


yikes- too old for this crappola-

what else is new with me huh???????

[nero]

hi guys -

i'd just about stake my life on being there- are ya really gonna come visit? so, does that mean i need to clean up the garden for real???? or are we meeting somewhere?

i'll happily feed ya - if you promise not to look around my house and say"oh, my, i can write my name in the dust here???""!!!

(what h's mother said first time came to dinner- what a bich huh?

anyway- okay by me. wonder if h will be going back and forth as he has been- i swear- every single time i wonder why or if he'll ever turn up again. so far- he keeps on- but i can't imagine why one would keep it up so long.

if she's sooooooo IMPORTANT - MORE IMPORTANT THAN ME ANYWAY-

HE SURE IS A SICK GUY- JUST NOTHING DRAMATIC WITH A NAME

OH WELL- MADE THE COOKIES AND ADDED SOME OATMEAL - THEY'RE GOOD AND LOW FAT-ISH. I GOT NOTHIN AND FEEL RUSHIE AND WIERDIE-
BACK LATER IF TIME.

XXOO