Last night I had a hard time sleeping and now I'm wide awake I'm so scared that I won't be able to keep up with my bills. MIL is trying to help me to get by bills knocked down to a more reasonable amount for me to be able to afford. I'm so grateful for her help. But I still worry about it. I need to just slow down and stop worrying about everything which is hard for me to do. I already have couple of bills that are couple of monthes behond. I should have taken over the bill paying along time ago and I know a lot of ppl have told me this but I had put to much trust in H and now I have to try to catch up and again I never in my wildest dream that my marriage would end up like this. I just need some good fortune to come my way yes I know I have to go and get it cause its not coming on its own.
M:42 H:37 M:14yrs S:13; S:9 Found out PA:8/2012 2nd PA & still w/OW:4/2013 H asked for D:6/2013 H moved out: 8/2013 H & OW moved in together: 8/2013
