My Story - Need Help... Is there hope?

[truelovewaits]

Thank you so much for your guidance and support Whiterose. I'm amazed at your determination and discipline. I believe your husband will eventually see the error of his ways. Keep up the good work.

I've done GAL and 180s but I've screwed up and backslid a bunch. I know she views me as weak because of what happened in the past and the chasing and bringing things up drove her away. She now doesn't see me as anything but a brother at best but she doesn't speak to me at all or wants to. She doesn't want to face any of it and has said that she wasn't happy in the M and that she just M a best friend (even though there was surely a strong love.)

I also didn't handle my responses as well as you did as I said I begged and fought and told her I didn't want to be friends. She is in another state and there really is no way for her to know anything that is going on. Not to mention if she heard anything it would be through operator which would only cause miscommunication.

I'm all over the place too right now. A good part of me knows that I can't contact her right now. Another though feels she will never contact me again and that if I don't establish a friendly contact she'll be gone forever. If she feels she is done and is with the OM is it over? As a woman do you feel you could change your mind? What if one of the primary reasons was that you felt that the EA would never be forgotten and held over your head? I tried to say this wouldn't be an issue but we never got to really discuss it and the EA continued even when she lied that it was over. She then called it a fantasy.

I'd love more perspective and advice from you and the community. Thank you again for your help. I cannot imagine how difficult this must be for you and for your family. I admire your courage and dedication to your family, you are an example for us all. Regardless of anything else your children are lucky to have such an amazing mother.

Take care. Thank you again.