Standing "still"

[missmyfriend]

[quote=Cadet
Oh I hope you start a new thread.

I totally understand the being alone part.

I am OK with being alone most of the time.

Meeting other LBS's has been one of the best parts of this.

STANDING is NOT STILL!

What are you going to do when S16 goes to college?[/quote]

I agree that standing is not still (although I had to poke fun by using the title for this thread as a double entendre'). There are some areas I feel I have stood still but mostly due to financial reasons. While I am not broke (God has continued to take care of me), the expenses of upkeep and modernizing my house has been slow. I would update the house regardless of what happens plus I'd prefer to sell the house and move into something considerably smaller. I want a nice house but something easy to take care of.

Also, getting my new motorcycle is something that I have wanted again since I sold my last one several years ago. Once my son is more independent, i.e. isn't around the house as much, I will probably join an MC (not Sons of Anarchy type but one of the Christian MC groups in the area. I have one that is in my town that does a lot of charity work).

When my youngest is on his own, I will probably belong to more groups such as the ones with my church and possibly see if I can start to visit friends who have moved out of town.

Overall, I am not worried about what I will do when I am "alone." I know I will have a tough time adjusting. Since my W and I had kids, I have changed so much. I was somewhat of a loner. I mean, I got together with friends frequently but I could find enjoyment going places by myself. That isn't the case anymore. I find it hard to enjoy going anywhere without someone, especially family. I cannot say how much I love my kids and how much I like them. I would rather be with family than anyone. And I do have some good friends although they are pretty busy with their own lives.

I spend a great deal of time in my thoughts and that is good and bad. I miss my W and my kids. And there is no replacement for them. So I try to focus on the now and thank God for what I have and not what I don't have.

So I am standing "still" but not standing still.