Last night I had another one of those moments... well, hours, where I couldn't stop re-hashing how things went down since BD #2. What was really killing me is when W texted me wanting to go to a movie and I told her I couldn't make it. I thought I was doing a good DB thing by not being too available or eager. I actually kind of panicked because I was doing a GAL activity - I was at that very movie, in the town we were supposed to be moving to, and I didn't want her to think I was over there spying or snooping on her.
That was the last time she wanted to do anything with me.
I know in my head that this kind of thinking does no good, and I did check the behavior and break the spiral, but it took many tries.
