DB seemingly backfired w/ my H???

[Mimi00]

I can understand your feelings about going back based on my own experiences. For me, I thought when i left here in December that I was gone for good.

When i got back, I had the eerie feeling of "Been there done that". It was strange to see things that I was familiar with but still had a feeling of new.

Thanks for sharing your experience, I'm glad things went your way. Gives me hope.

For me I had a feeling of familiar, I enjoyed showing my friend around who came with me. I when to my old neighborhood that I lived in alone when I was 22. So much had changed; it was weird because when I got married we only moved 45 minutes away, in the 4 years of marriage I never went back, I truly gave a lot up for him at that's what I saw. I enjoyed seeing the old and new things, I liked being there, but I just had a feeling of this is no longer where I am supposed to be .... I guess that's how H feels when he sees me lol

However, now that I have been here for three weeks, it feels as though I never left. That I was on some kind of extended work assignment.

There is a certain solace that comes with the familiar surroundings. i wanted to move here. i wanted to live in this house. The only thing missing from my life is my W and my dogs.

I agree. The job I am going back to is in the town 45 mins away from the city. I felt better there than I did in the city. Every single thing there reminds me of H, but I didn't feel sad. So hopefully I will feel good about the decision after a few weeks, as you did.

You can not change the past. It is a cruel illusion that a lot of do to ourselves. We want to go back and make things right. We try to control everything so much that we want to include the past. Ain't happening, girl. Ever. it is a done deal.

You are right sir.
I sometimes think about things like, sheesh I wish I had seen things from a different angle at the time and made a better choice, maybe I wouldn't be in this situation. But the I quickly say.... can't change the past.

Now I'm sort of at the point where I am questioning my choices/decision making skills ... seems like I've made poor choice after poor choice from what I majored in, in college, all the way up to who I married (someone who once told me divorce would never be an options, yet threw me away seemingly easily instead of understanding this was my first real relationship, I am not perfect, but things could have been changed/worked on had they been communicated to me in a proper manner).

I want to make better choices from this point on. So this move somewhat scares me.... I pray and read and look for "signs"... I'm getting mixed signals or don't know how to properly place & apply the information I get. I get a Bible scripture that basically (to me)says I will be blessed any where I go then I go to church later in that day and the Pastor says "Even through you're going through pain, you've been strategically placed, stick it out" (don't move?). My brother sends me a text saying, "I really feel like that is your city, take it back!" (move?).

My brain is tired of thinking.... what will I do....what is right.... what is best....