Thanks dmr, PS, ruby & Tori,

Thanks for the congrats on my charity bike ride! I do feel good about my personal accomplishment. And, yes, PS, my tushy does hurt a bit today!

I do agree H is opening up, but I don't think it will change his path. OW is not yet D'ed but "is almost D'ed" so H has not been "dating her" yet...still an EA, according to him.

Yet, he is willing to throw everything away for her. His marriage, his family, his home & everything we've built together...all for this life he thinks he wants w OW.

Unfortunately I think it will be far in the future before he realizes the grass ain't greener--if he ever does.

Mediation starts Tuesday. I am sad about this. In fact I can't stop thinking that it all is really going to happen.

Dropping the rope is all about me moving forward and unfortunately H has not wavered in his path toward life w OW/ away from me... so I feel I have no choice except to save myself by moving through this process.

My mind remains open... until it is over.


M- 18 T-21
S-14,11 & 10
BD 6-18-2012 (OW-EA)
H moved out 11-3-2012
10-5-13 Me- I want a divorce. I want to move on w my life.
11-25-13 Jointly filed.