Thanks uRworthy, some good stuff to reflect upon.... I absolutely know that H is avoiding looking in, although he has started.
As for standing, H has expressed the need for me to find out what is out there, because in his head, how can I be sure I want him? Also, I am sure it gives him a little freedom from the guilt he has about dating. For me, I think, I have to have that connection first, not just the curiosity.
I have come to realize that while I want H and love H, I don't need H. He has expressed that in our marriage, there were only a handful of times he felt I needed him. That is true. I don't know how to let H feel he is needed, because I am not sure what it looks like.
As for dating....I don't think I want that right now. However, I won't put off GET AWAY vibes...;p
