And then i went backsliding again! I really hate myself for thinking of my wife. Hoping that she will be with me when meeting new people. I need to break this co dependency. Although i recovered myself from the thoughts, it still means that i'm not detached enough.
I taking on the motto, faking it until i become it. I need to be positive every single day no matter what happens. Finally have the courage to block my W off my facebook news feed. She seemed to be having a great time without me being around. Posting happy status. She tend to mix in various comments on how love should be and such. I decided to remove her from my news feed because her status seemed to make me feel sad. Am I really that bad to be with? Am I really the one that didn't bring anything to the marriage?
Yes I understand i need to GAL a lot more. Even with GAL, i still think of her for even that one fraction of the second, that brings everything down for me.
Another week ahead for me to become a better me it seemed. Still working on validating others in conversation.
