What you are going through is as hard as dealing with a death in the family or cancer.
This is so so hard. Please take the time to do everything you can to save yourself.
Falling into despair would be easy and normal but I can tell from your posts you are stronger then that.
1. Find a local support group - church, divorce support meetings, I recommend Alanon even if alcohol is not involved.
2. Take care of yourself - buy yourself little things that make you feel good and make your day easier. I know money is prob tighter these days but these little happy things can make all the difference. I liked treating myself to starbucks and buying lipsticks constantly at the drug store
3. Delve into your hobby. Maybe working out, maybe guitar - something.
4. Write a gratitude list every night
miz is right they have to become zombie/robots or they would recognize that their actions are so horrendous it would bring them to their knees.
You have a very wise mother in law.
Keep posting
---- M 39 H 35 D5,D4 M 4 T 9 ILYBNILWY 5/18/11 Left 7/11/11 Divorced 12/1/13
