180 I know I'm stepping away back down again but I just don't understand why he is traeting me this way. I know that everyone keeps telling me that I will be fine deep down I'm so afraid that I will loose everything , which I already did with my marriage. I hope that I will be able to move on but now the day is come and he will no longer be here and I dont know if he will keep in contact with me at all. Maybe I should just do what my father told me just go and file for a D and get it over with it. I don't know anymore what to do. I know everyone keeps telling me what I need to too. The true reason for all my ups And downs like this is because all of my relationships I every had always ends up like this. So when I meet my H I thought he would be so different from the rest of them and he was up until he got into great shape he lost over 70 pounds. And now he looks really good and all these other women started to flirt with him. The only difference between the other relationships I had and The one with H is now I have two kids that I have to look after and I'm very far away from my hometown and far away from my nears blood relatives. Im just so afraid that I won't be able to make it.
M:42 H:37 M:14yrs S:13; S:9 Found out PA:8/2012 2nd PA & still w/OW:4/2013 H asked for D:6/2013 H moved out: 8/2013 H & OW moved in together: 8/2013
