LostHope I'm sorry this is how your first pregnancy is going. Unfortunately it's always something you will remember. Right now as hard as it is try to focus on your baby as that's all that's important right now. I hope all works out for you as well. I agree the hardest part is that this the 3rd time he's done this to me. I am tired at this point. I was looking at my picture from 3 years ago and I am unrecognizable. The stress has really gotten to me and at some point I need to say enough is enough. I am done. I wish I was done and ready to move on for my own sake. For now I keep on hoping.
Thanks for your kind words. I am trying, it is exceedingly difficult. I do know it is going to get easier to detach when the baby arrives ... well beacuse I'll have a new absolutely adorable and most important priority. In the meantime, this is death by a thousand cuts.
I agree with you with wanting to move on but also keeping hope alive. It's a tough balance, especially since we have both been LBSs more than once. "If" he came back how would I trust that he wouldn't leave again. He promised me when he came back last time that he wouldn't leave me, that we would work through our problems that will inevitably arise. Then he does this again ... and in the middle of my pregnancy. At this point I don't even really know if I want him or why. I can't tell you why except that I innately love him and I repect my marriage vows "for better or worse".
Me 35 H 34 DS- newborn 8/13 T 8.5 M 7 H's EA - 10/11 INILWY 5/13 DBing 6/13 Don't know WTF to do 1/14
