Thanks everyone. I'll take all that on board.

Bit of a bombshell last night when I went to see an old friend who I know W put up to contacting me. She actually told him that TOP makes her "light up" and she's sorry that hasn't happened with me but 5 minutes later, texts again to ask how I'm doing.

Confused and conflicted would be just 2 of the things I'm feeling at the moment.


M: 36
W: 30
D1: 5
D2: 3
T: 12 Years
M: 9 Years