Man...I am so sorry
I know how that pain feels...I have had it on and off for not yet a full year now, and I don’t know how long I can go, but at this point I'm willing to still stick with it a while longer, and who knows. I completely understand your position and if you haven’t thought about it yet, you have succeeded more than you know if you are where you want and need to be for your own happiness!
I'm still working with a DB coach so, I've got a few things yet to try down the road....right now, I have to become better at detaching...and I can always work on my patience!
Take a break for a while my friend....your love will never die, but I know you can find it best to give what you have left to someone that really can appreciate all the changes you have made to make you the best “you”, you can be!
Good luck and please keep popping up to give me a little input now and then...its been nice to have someone in my corner that knows exactly what I am going thru


M 52
W 40
D 15 (step)
S 12 (step)
Married 7, together almost 8
Separated 1 year before bomb from her "I love you, I'm just..."
BD final 8/22/12