Is it too soon to give up hope?

[2ndtimearoundCA]

In w's mind we are already divorced. She won't file unless she meets someone and wants to marry that person. I know this because of her past behavior. She is not looking for change in me; she is done with me. (Even if she has lingering feelings) If we got together again, it would be an entirely new relationship. I am changing for me and any future relationship I have with her or anyone else.

My 180s: better financial stability and intimacy issues. I have been working hard on these and I have also gotten myself in the best physical shape of my life. And I am spending quality time with my kids.

I went into a period of almost no contact shortly after w and I split. This was mid February thru mid April. Mid April I started sending friendly text messages. I have gotten positive responses to 95% of the messages I have sent. At one point w said she would always love me and cherish the moments we had. W asked me to go to gym with her about 6 times and I agreed twice. We also met for drinks once and i got the ilybnilwy line. Still, I have been texting with her and getting hints that she still has feelings for me. The canceled trip is a huge set back for me. Otherwise I believe that my texting has been a positive. At this point I am thinking about how to respond to her cancelation. I think it is wrong to agree to do something and cancel without explanation 2 days before. Not that it is unexpected from a waw. I want to let her know that it was not a cool thing to do.

I canceled the Vegas trip and will probably spend the weekend with friends on the bay racing sailboats.