First off it's my 39th B-day today and I get to have lunch and spend evening with the kids. May not be the exciting bachelor day my friends think I need but it's what I want to do so that's what I'm doing.
Not a whole lot new in my life, just continuing to live life and enjoy the little things that it brings. XW and I are still being cordial to even friendly at times. Maybe there is hope we'll remain friends as time goes. I will say I'm surprised at just how detached I've become from her, both emotionally and physically. As some of you know we're still in the same house waiting for it to sell so we see each other daily. I can say nothing she does or doesn't do affects me anymore. We're basically co-parenting in same house and doing our own things.
My search for a house is building momentum and kids and I are actually checking out 6-7 together tomorrow. They've recently both started asking me more 'future' type questions. I answer them honestly and I think the right way for them to understand. I realized a lot of the questions have to do with the next place we live. I told XW that I was going to really involve them in the process so they felt like they have a say. Not sure she was on board because she wasn't doing that but I'm the one fielding all their questions and I felt it was the right thing for them. This has went surprisingly well and we've had a lot of fun looking at houses online. They are SUPER excited to look at them in person. Both my kids love the water and 3 houses we look at tomorrow have a pool so I wonder which ones they'll be pushing for .
Overall kids have been doing really well. We've always had a tight relationship and I think it's only been strengthened through this process. Besides the questions increasing a little neither have had any sad moments that I've seen and behavior is back in line with 'normal'. Actually they're probably getting along with each other better than ever. I still don't think they really grasp the whole separation thing and how that will feel since they are young and have never experienced it so I expect some hard times while we all make the transition. This used to stress me out to no end but now I know without a doubt I'll get them through it. One nice thing is both kids have taken more of an interest in reading the Bible lately. They've seen me read mine everyday for ever and know my beliefs but it was always me asking to read it with them. The last 3-4 weeks they've been pressing it to me. D7 has been reading hers by herself every morning along with a girls devotional that I gave her and has wanted to talk about "the stories" when I get home. I bought S5 the comic book version of the Bible and now he wants to read that every night before bed instead of the car or dinosaur books. I'm very happy for this since I don't feel like I'm pushing it on them anymore.
I feel like I'm busy all the time. Best part is it isn't the nuisance busy that a lot of my life has been. I'm staying busy doing things I enjoy and things that I've missed. Playing with kids and do active stuff outside, running with a team, getting in shape and exercising almost every day (if I could stop eating so much ice cream and cookies I'd have the defined 6-pack again, getting closer), started playing video game online with some friends again after kids go to bed once a week which is a lot of laughter, and starting to go out with friends. I also have tickets to a lot of sporting events with both friends and the kids. Couple things that are in the works that I just have to decide where I want to put my energy are: 4-wheeler/ dirt bike, Harley, sky dive cert, pilots license, back into martial arts, go-kart racing. These are things that I've either done in past and miss or have wanted to do. Will pick at least one once I get moved and new routine settles down.
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