How do you do it? How do you wait? How do you not contact him? What if you feel that you ended things wrong? I just feel that I dealt with all of it wrong. I was angry, I pressured her, I fought, I begged. I did everything wrong. Those are her last memories of me, would anyone want to come back to that? Would you?
As a woman what would you suggest? Should I send her an email? Should I send a gift? I don't want to ignore her. I also don't want to annoy her. I just feel that if I could have handled the situation better she wouldn't have cheated physically (I am assuming she didn't until after she left but the EA was there for sure.) I understand the EA as we both handled the distance poorly. Doesn't excuse the behavior, but it is understandable. Once upon a time we were beyond best friends and shared everything, we were more than best friends and our love was full of passion and excitement. Now we don't even speak and the person who left is someone who really didn't care or respect me.
How do you deal with all of this community? I know GAL, I get it. I have to say I do have one, but she is always on my mind. Right now my life is more exciting than it ever was. I am also apart of things that I know she would love more than I do (and I love them.) It kills me.
It does get better and has, but still I feel that this part of me will always be here and I'll always yearn to restore what we once had or to try for something better if we just had the opportunity. Knowing that I wonder what I could do to help the situation I guess.
If nothing is the best solution than I will do it. As difficult as it is I will, but if any one feels I should do anything else please let me know.
together 7+yrs Married 3 Me 33 W 33 no kids BD 9/12 MC 9/12 W leaves MC 10/12 W moves out 11/12 Divorce 2/13 W moves 5/13 NC 05/13 D final 8/13
