Guess I belong here now...

[sweetbabyred]

I had an interesting convo with XH today. He texted me on Mon and again on Wed to wish me a good day and both times mentioned that he missed me. I sent him quick messages back, also wishing him a good day and totally ignoring the missing me part. I hadn't heard from him in over a week, so it was odd to have two messages so soon.

Then he actually called me today, on his way to pick up SS. I spoke to him briefly, thinking it might be important, and then told him I had a paper to write and would call him back later. I did so, about 4 hours later.

He stated that it was hard for him to think of me dating other people. I wanted to laugh, since I'd been dealing with him dating people the last two years, and we were still married at the time.

I just said that it had been difficult for me to get used to also and left it at that. I think he may have actually stopped for a second to consider that and realized what I'd been through.

He said he misses talking to me, and he's still very attracted to me. Months ago this would have given me hope and, dare I say it, expectations that he might try to work on things.

I've been talking to a few people on an online dating site, and while I doubt anything will come of it, it's nice to know that there are other options out there. I know I was the better choice all along and H missed out.

It was funny because I'd mentioned that I was talking to some guys and then said something about updating my profile. He seemed shocked that I'd still have a profile up if I was chatting with guys. I told him I wasn't getting married to any of these guys right away and had no reason to stop meeting others.

Now, I haven't met any of these guys in person so it's really not serious at all, but XH is finally realizing that I don't belong to him any more.

I plan to see SS this weekend so it'll be the first time I've seen XH in weeks also. Should be interesting. I know that I'll most likely end up a little sad, but I know I'll come out okay.

I have faith that I'll end up where I need to be, as long as I keep doing what I know I need to do.