I am doing better today...yesterday was actually a pretty good day. I have made a decision to stay positive. I think that CAN and should be a choice that is made, by me and everyone dealing with this. For the last few days, every time my mind starts sinking, I have forced myself to focus on, "hey I have a nice house"..."hey, I have lot of free time on my hands to do whatever I want, whenever I want". "hey, I should call a friend and just say Hi". The list goes on. I am still struggling with interaction with wife. I will be honest, it isn't easy for me to even see her. I have been trying to avoid her all together. We have however, been texting in regards to daughter and that is staying very amicable. The less I interact with W, the better I am feeling.
A couple things that have been issues for me in the last few days; Daughter expressed to me (when I asked her where she slept at OM house), that "mommy sleeps on the couch or sometimes in Dave's bed"....WTF! I don't know how to interpret that. I have to remind myself that this is coming from a 6yo. For all I know, she could have been sleeping in his room while he was mowing the yard. Who knows. It is however very concerning for me. I am not sure, but I highly doubt W would be so careless with daughters well being. I am not going to mind read, build a scenario or acknowledge it at this point.
I did have a long detailed conversation with MIL, regarding this sleeping incident. The conversation went into a marriage conversation, with her expressing that she thinks W is pursuing an unhappy road with her choice to move so quickly with OM and the fact that he really isn't her type in the first place. She worries about the long term....ya, no kidding MIL! Unfortunately, she also admitted that she has been giving some of this advice, about how to move on, to wife. By definition, MIL is a grand master of "getting out". If you recall, she is on her 5th marriage, which is currently struggling as well.
All in all, I am doing much better today than I was a week ago. I think I was just on a very bumpy portion of the roller coaster track.
