Hoping for WAS to come home

[stilllookingup]

I just have to look at my sister who was married to a navy deal that was KIA back in 2005. Devastating event in our families life. Yet through time she found love again and 2 great kids.

I've always taken this differently. My MIL lost her 2nd H who she was so happily married with to a heart attack. No sign, no warning. Now she's been in a relationship with her new love for more than 10 years and I think they'll be together forever. Even though losing somebody you love to tragic accidents like theirs must be unbearable but their Hs loved them when they died. MIL knows the 2nd H loved her when he died. Your sister knows her H loved her when he died.

I often think and wonder would I really be able to love somebody like I do H if he were to leave me knowing he didn't love me anymore? These thoughts are completely against DB-ing but I can't help but wonder.

I know I should be able to be at a place where I can honestly think "pffft! He's a fool for leaving me. It's ok he didn't love me because somebody else will" but obviously I'm not there yet.