Need help detaching

[lost_hope]

Thanks planet and chl0901. Chl, you're right about the ML now except as you point out no emotional support Last night he was talking about having Thanksgiving or Christmas at our new home, but then for past couple of days he reminded me that's he's leaving me and "why won't I get it through my thick skull" that he's only doing this for the baby. So then why does he discuss hosting our family for holidays.

I don't know how much more of this i can take. Im starting to think a real separation would be better for us. Like maybe once we move in ill let him just stay with his mom right away.

I'm exhausted guys. I'm three weeks out, packing a condo, figuring out how to close on two properties, having to prep my MIL house for our temporary stay and still having to deal with this with H. Some days i just want to run away. I am still reading DB and on the chapter regarding doing something different. Well my do something different might be to just completely give up on us. each day that passes in this state pushes me further and further away.

Also what do you guys think? Maybe since he's left before, left/is leaving again, and he's so unhappy I should just let him go. He's clearly not as invested in me as I am in him. What am I holding on to??

Anyway my GAL today is to read and pack bc I don't have time to do other GAL activities. He's going out tonight: hockey, out with boys after, errands for his mom. So I'm not going to call or fuss about time. (Haven't been doing that for weeks).

I'm not being negative. Just honest. I don't think 180 / gal / DB will bring us back together b/c he wants to be apart and doesn't think that just bc were married we should be as connected as normal people imagine married people should be. He's perfectly happy to have me have a totally separate life and he has his own. So anyway ...