Hi Dawn, Hi uRworthy, thanks so much for stopping by!
Can you go see a doc about maybe getting something to take the edge off a bit? I am going to make an appointment! I am going to start back on my workout, that always feels so good.
I can see your h is co dependent on you. That is a heavy burden to carry. He is and he fights it knowing he is hopeless. My S22 is a huge advocate of "leave him to fail"! But, even something as simple as food in the fridge, H know's I'm not going to stop shopping to penalize him.
Only you know when you have had enough. If you have, it is ok to say you are done with the sitch as it is now and you will move forward. I amaze myself at how done and ok I am at with the idea of H moving out and not contacting me for a very long time. He said he would still come by, do chores, I said no, I want NC indefinitely! He said no way, he said he then would probably begin to stalk me as he does EA. REALLY! His threats mean nothing to me!
He has to know that you mean it or it will not work. That is my own frustration and stumbling block, the how!
Please try to figure out some way to get some light in your life. It is so important and something you deserve. I do have great light, 4 kids, a g-son on the way, I no longer want to continue my focus on him. My aunt and God son never visit, my D19 would have friends over, we would have BBQ's w more often. It's me, I still sometimes sit in a fog.
Do just one small thing for you. Something fun or to relax you a bit.
You can do this, D. Thanks for the confidence, I will ride on it until I can build my own!
Thanks to everyones support and advice. I am reading it over and over. It means the world to me right now! I cannot get thru this alone. Not at all!
prayer and peace, dm
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
