Hey guys, just an update... Not much has changed by way of R but it's def a much calmer home enviroment. Today I was going back through old text messages, boy oh boy. I F'd up big time. I didn't see it then but man. She told me everything she needed and I basically tried to bully her and tell her why she was wrong. I feel so stupid right now, because I thought I was doing everything right. I mean I was a real A hole. Anniversary was 2 days ago didn't do anything will post later the letter we exchanged.
Overall, i'm doing good but I really realized today for the 1st time how much I hurt her. It was like watching a movie of my life through the text convo... Surreal. I want to pick up the phone now and call to say I get it, or do I just keep it to myself and just do 180's on all those things. Most I have already anyway just not sure if I should bring it up at all.
