Hoping for WAS to come home

[JaxFL14]

ETC,
Your right, there should be something. I need a shock collar that knows when I'm about to get week or needy and shock me until I come out of it. Lol

I wrote out an email that I'm going to send to my W about boundaries and what I need right now. Just don't know when to send it. Would it really hurt anything if I sent it now and then had our trip to MD on the 5th of August? I doubt it. As of now she doesn't even want to attempt to stay married so what would it hurt. Why wait until after the trip? Do you think an email basically saying you can't ask me to cut wood, fix pipes and replace outlets at your new home, is going against being the friend? Shouldn't helping her be a good thing? But then I think, she can't have it the way she wants it. She has to see what being alone is like. I can't do the things for her like I'm still her loving husband in a loving marriage. She's told me she wants a divorce, she moved out, she doesn't want try counseling, but then is willing to move states if I have to for my job. Said she wants to go from Florida to Hawaii. I know she wouldn't mind being out of Florida because of my family living here in this town which she has not spoken to one time since BD. but she claims to have no problem with me. That its all in her head, she fell out of love and has this feeling of wanting to live alone. (Believe nothing she says) no one WANTS to go through life alone. I'm still hopeful that her antidepressants have something to do with it and maybe a hormone imbalance. I've said it before and it still goes through my head every day. How does a women with 2 young kids, and 2 months prego with a third have the urge to leave and live alone? (Stayed until baby was 6 months old before dropping bomb). I just can't swallow that it's not a head thing and she's not thinking right. But dang, she's been moved out for 3 months and hasn't even once hinted about a regret.