Positive thinking is ESSENTIAL for you, especially now. Silly as it may sound, having a "sad" thread title only reinforces your sadness. So having a wonderful, promising thread title as you do now will reinforce wonderful and promising things!!
This doesn't mean everything will now magically be rainbows and sunshine. (Oh if it were only that easy!!)
I would like to suggest you deal head on with your racing thoughts and fears. Such as actually saying in your head
"I feel uneasy right now because I think H and OW will be living together."
Acknowledge what you feel because you have a RIGHT to feel that way. You have been emotionally assaulted.
What you don't have a RIGHT to do is to allow your "feelings" to determine your behavior, to EXCUSE doing/saying what you know you shouldn't.
But you are on the right track with
I know that I will have to let it go cause I have no control over what H and OW does
(I made your words pink just to bug you!! Lol) Good for you to know that ^^! The next step is to train your brain to focus on what you DO have control over - YOU!!
I'm going to challenge you once again to stretch yourself. 180 has been a good friend to you here on DB. I'm willing to bet that she'd love you to visit her thread and return the kindness she has shown you. Reach out K, reach and grow.
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.
